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25
FebTime is too slow for those who wait…
Time is too slow for those who wait
Too swift for those who fear
Too long for those who grieve
Too short for those who rejoice
But, for those who love –
Time is eternity.
.
-Henry van Dyke
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1868
19
NovWhat’s The Difference Between Regular and Decaf Coffee?
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1
8
OctCaesura
It’s annoying and sticky and complicated like balls of ripped spaghetti
And really I’m far too old for little infatuations
(and flash: denial) too old for silly smiles
for love-me, love-me-not daisies
for eyes that inflict global warming on my blood.
.
It’s all simply childish and nonsensical
(and although some part hurts
when comparing the pink of infatuation to the blood red of love)
So I laugh and talk (
and flirt?)And we play the pretend game where we both act like
We don’t mean any more than our words say
(And if I’m on my knees at night
praying that this won’t evolve to be as serious as it seems
then that’s part of the game too).
.
But maybe I’m bruised enough to know (even if you’re not, naive little princeling)
That all games are fun
Until you stumble and cut yourself.
I’ve been shattered and made whole and survived fires
That I never want you to walk through.
.
I’m scared. Heart pounding from exhilaration and fear
(and mostly fear) because I’ve been down this thorny path
And wiser people do not make mistakes the second time around
And I don’t know what I’m doing and I don’t want to ask you
Because (oh God) the worst confirmation would be
That you don’t know what you’re doing as well.
.
I want to ask but that would make it real (and Game Over)
I want to pause it’s all fast forward but the controller’s beyond my reach
So will you please slow down take a deep breath
And look at where we’re going?
…
Because God help us if we break.
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3
Oct"I’ll never know how much it cost
To see my sin upon that cross"- Here I Am To Worship -
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27
SepDesaparecidos*
There is a certain sadness
To a cabinet unopened for five years
Full of unworn clothes
Where dust, mites and all the denizens of the forgotten
Gravitate to.
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There is a certain sadness
To a family sitting, eating, laughing
Together at the dinner table
Where one seat will always be empty.
.
There is a certain sadness
For the friend you text, call, email
With full knowledge you will receive no reply
Yet hoping for the impossible anyway.
.
For the student marked INC in your class
Whose story (and end) you will never know
For the stranger you always rode the train with
And who just… wasn’t there one day.
.
There is a quiet sadness
In an unknown, unnamed body
thrown off the cliff - sunk in the ocean - buried in the desert
And mourned hundreds of miles away.
.
The people responsible
(because it wasn’t monsters but people
and that is the greatest betrayal of all)
…
Did they feel the sadness too?
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*desaparecidos - forced disappearance; literally ‘one who has disappeared’
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22
SepLiving In Memory
Oh, memory, my false friend
Half-thoughts and unthoughts are all I have left.
Leave me my illusions
Give back marinated afternoons eaten with easy conversations
Give back smiles thrown at the sepia-colored air
When every heartbeat was a still life of pictures taken endlessly.
Don’t steal my naive longings of what could be
And poison my mind with ‘never’
Let me have my hopes, my fantasies,
And call them foolish if you dare.
I will exist in half-remembered dreams of a reality
Where the future never comes.
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2
16
SepA World Without Prejudice
I don’t believe that
In order to love God
I have to hate those who don’t.
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1
12
SepPrivacy
We whore ourselves out
on the internet, facebook, myspace, friendster, tumblr, lj, multiply
It’s a plaintive whine: “I just want someone to see me. The real me.”
…
..
.
Oh, don’t worry.
Someone’s watching.
It’s the internet. Whatever you post, nothing’s sacred.
Someone’s always watching.
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12
Sep"Courage! I have shown it for years; think you I shall lose it at the moment when my sufferings are to end?"
- Marie Antoinette -
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11
SepStormy Night
Alone with the music of the storm
And hot instant noodles.
.
The ghosts are playing hide-and-seek
With every swivel of my head they are gone
But their shifting footsteps, gauzy shadows and laughter
Pass the edge of my senses.
.
They do not scare me but rather, comfort
.
Stories and books beckoning from the laptop screen
And oh, my room has no right to be warm
On such a cold, cold night
The once-feared loneliness has now become
A trusted companion - a silent friend.
.
Rainwater tries to build a lake
On the living room floor.
There are dim orange lights downstairs
But where I am sprawled on covers that need laundering
The spotlight is harshest, brightest.
.
I shut all the lights and in the darkness
With rain, wind, ghosts and the ever-present Nissin cup noodles
I find welcome.
-(written long ago and posted because i want it to be stormy again)
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Quantum
I’d like to think that among the trillions of atoms in my not-so-flattering body is one...
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mirror
I cannot
look at you
because it’snot
his face
I see
when I do. -
shattered glass
somewhere.
somewhere in this world,
there is adark-haired,boy,
dark-eyed
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what do you make of the term "non-fictional fiction"?
That’s it, I give up. I don’t know how to...
